I had a very tough evening yesterday, the pain was really bad. I stayed at Ioannis’ flat and it made a really nice difference from my place. His room is bigger than mine and he has a decent sized kitchen and a front room! My place is a shoe box. Ioannis made dinner and we ate and then were relaxing in his room when suddenly the pain got wild and the spasms started again. I haven’t had those since I was in hospital. I took a load of pain relief and laid very still. Every time I moved at all the spasms kicked in and I was wailing in pain. Ioannis was very close to calling an ambulance but I said let’s just wait for the pain meds to kick in. Eventually the pain subsided and the spasms stopped and I was able to relax.
I texted Kim and told him about my pain. He asked me to do something similar to the work we did last week, which was to go into my body and connect with the pain. To put my hands gently over my liver and connect with it energetically. I did this and it helped the pain to subside. Pain is a sign of an unresolved issue or an unlearned lesson and so I am working on connecting with my body and asking what it is trying to tell me. Money is a message that kept coming up for me and so I need to explore more deeply what this means for me. I was also feeling some of the anger that is trapped deep inside me.
I woke this morning feeling a little better, although the pain was still present. I had some food, took my meds and got ready for my Skype call with Kim as I can’t get into the clinic to see him this week. Again, he got me to connect with what is going on with my body and I sat with my eyes closed and my hand gently over my liver and listened as he spoke to me. As I connected with my body and just relaxed, I could feel the swelling in my liver start to ease. I told Kim that I hadn’t juiced yesterday or today and he told me that it is absolutely vital that I juice every day as my body needs the greens. He also explained that the Vitamix creates a lot of roughage in my body as it processes all of the stem and fibrous parts of the vegetables, which while good for bowel movement, is quite tough on my digestive system and so we agreed that I would buy a juicer as this is easier for my body to digest. I need to consume 1-2 pints of green juices per day. I have ordered a Green Star GS 2000 juicer from Energise Your Life, which was significantly cheaper than on Amazon.
Kim explained to me about the energy frequencies of chemo, food and love. The lowest frequency of energy is chemo and pharmaceutical medicine. It takes a lot of energy from your body and is incredibly difficult for the it process. The next energy frequencies are food based and they are divided into three layers. The bottom layer is processed food and white flours and grains. They have no real goodness in them and they take a lot of energy for your body to process and their energy frequency is low, in the same bracket as chemo. The next layer are foods that activate within your body, such as the food state nutrients that I am taking. Seeds and grains will also fall into this category. The highest energy frequency of foods are those which grow naturally in the sunlight and are full of chlorophyl such as green plants and vegetables. They give the strongest life force to your body and that is why juicing is absolutely vital to do religiously every day, with high quality organic greens such as kale, broccoli, spinach and other wonderful ingredients. But the highest frequency of all and the one that trumps everything is love. Once you can connect with love and that highest power your are connecting to the highest frequency of all and that is why this journey for me is all about love, starting with loving myself. My body needs love and nurturing and the cancer needs to be treated with love and to be asked what is the lesson that it is trying to teach me. This is not a battle or a war because that instantly creates a negative charge and frequency. It is a journey of light and healing and love. We also talked about fasting and how that would need to be done properly under guidance. This is something that has been coming up for me and my body has been whispering to me. I already know how this will happen but I will reveal the details once I have finalised the plans.
As always when I come away from my time with Kim, I feel a profound sense of peace and understanding within my body and one step deeper in my healing journey.
My next visit was to Carlyle and again we did some energy work around what my body was telling him. He told me that my gall bladder kept coming up, which signalled anger and issues that I was hanging onto and so we explored that. Through connecting with my body we got an early issue of anger, which happened when I was 7 years old. I tuned into what it was and the memory came back to me. I was out for the day with my Mum, step-dad and 3 brothers. I was the only child that was not my Step-dad’s and he treated me differently to the other children. We had gone into Woolworth’s and he bought a big bag of pick and mix sweets. He gave each of us a bag to hold and filled them with sweets. Except that he gave me just a few sweets in the bottom of the bag and gave the rest to my brothers. I remember being very upset and angry at the time that I was being treated differently and this memory has stayed with me all of my adult life. Carlyle took me back to that place and got me to feel the emotions all over again and then take deep breaths while he worked on pressure points in my body, which allowed me to release the emotion. I felt pretty dizzy and tired after this, which shows the strength and frequency of what I had to let go of.
I was extremely tired after such a full on emotional day and so came home with Ioannis and got into bed. Kim had asked me to take a homeopathic remedy that he had sent me, which are to be taken strictly under his instruction. The remedy is specifically for treating breast cancer. I laid still and tuned into my body once again and then took the remedy and just let my body respond as it needed to. Some strange thoughts came up and then I fell asleep for a couple of hours. When I woke, the pain had subsided and has stayed gone since. I just have a feeling of being very tired and needing to rest, which is exactly what I plan to do now.
It is my friends wedding tomorrow and I know how important it is for her that I am able to be there for the day. I really hope that I have the energy to make it.
Until next time….
Love Hannah x