Ioannis and I have found our way back to love over the past few days and he has sent me some of the most beautiful texts and a letter that I have ever read. Every single one has touched my heart so deeply. I feel so deeply loved.
I am so happy that he will be coming over in the next couple of days to support me and carry me through with his strength.
I am not ashamed to admit that I went into my old default mode of survivor and that I can make this on my own and I don’t need anyone. I need him more than ever right now. We did need a little space though as we were both in a dark place and being cooped up in our small flat shares was just too intense and stressful. Now we have had that space, we realise how much we miss each other. Ioannis wants so much to love and support and protect me and I need him so much.
I cannot wait to see him and draw strength from his love.
I have been incredibly poorly and have had to surrender completely to the care of the wonderful people here at Soukya. I don’t think I have ever in my life just let go and surrendered and it has been a huge step for me. I have been unable to do anything at all for myself.
However, today I can feel my life force is stronger, I have been able to make it to reception to post my blogs.
With peace and love. Goodbye for now. I hope to be with you again very soon.
Love Hannah x